just for you....

...you've made my day beautiful
or should I say night? : )

Nothing fails

Speechless. Broken. Happy. Thrilled. Excited. In despair of new beginning.Wanting so badly to stop and think. To forgive and be forgiven.

Wishing for a miracle...for this tears to stop...for a new chance...for better understanding...

trying,waiting, hoping...

for someone to comeback sometimes in the future so we can make alive our playground...

for someone to decide finally what to do next and succeed...

for someone to accept me as I am, and listen true me, like I am ready to accept and listen to him...

I am fucked up!
I wanted so strongly to be happy. To live intensively. To develop deeply.

and I've succeeded.

I am happy.
My life is more intense than ever before.
I am developing deeply.

but after this 2 or 3 months ...I just want to stop for a while and think, reflect, sum up... whatever you call it.
Because I am hurting people I care about.
Because I can not express to them some important things.
Because I am hearting myself by all this...and it hurts, fuck
it hurts so much
I could felt last night moment when my heart broke
I 've caused it
I am stupid...too excited and lost
In a desperate need for new things...
new chance
new talk
new deeper relations with people I care about and love so much
people I hope I didn't loose forever

but from now on,
I will not fear it.
I am learning how to let go.
of all the bad things
and let go to all moments, people and things I care, enjoy, love, want, feel...
just let myself go and enjoy the ride, wherever it takes me...
Trying so hard to loose it all so I can be free and enjoy in all the moments that are coming with people I am learning how to love, and maybe they are learning how to love me.

Nothing fails when you're fearless. Open. Understood. Loved.

The best things in life are always free

Hey:)

I really don't know from where to start...like really like:)

I am back in Belgrade, in my room, few hours ago I came back from Croatia, finishing my journey of thousands of miles that started on the 1st of November...

It was amazing, no words can describe it...
I will try to be short:)

Everything started on the 01.11. when I was trying to be on time for NLDS/OCP track...
Of course I couldn't manage it, 'cause of meeting, and NaLDS preparation....
In the evening I was in some motel near Rudnik mountain and motorway drinking turkish coffee near the conference place waiting for a friend from OC to pick me up. Than everything started!!!

NLDS was so amazing!!! OCPs and Newies were really awesome:) every year I have a feeling they are better and better! Can't wait for next year so I can compare:)

I had a lot of fun with all of them and ...oh it was just fucking amazing!
On the last day of NLDS it was time for Suzana,Ivan,Vanja and me to start with our journey to Germany...

We ended up waiting for bus on the dark motorway at 3h in the morning...
Eventually we came to Belgrade on time at dawn and start packing and doing stuff like looking for exchange office that is working at 5h in the morning...like usual-so ql thing to do:)

After all Serbian logistics adventure, we came to Vienna in the evening having a lot of unexpected fun in the train...
Vienna is really cool city, and we decided to live there sometimes for a while...

After crazy/late Hungarian train came, we were having a lot of unexpected fun (this is my new favorite 2 words ), for example passing on our station we were supposed to go and having small talks with crazy/smelly/ guy with a same dog that enters Suzana's and mine coupe ...

Eventually we came in Munich and catch our train to Hanover. We were on time at some village (I forgot name..Bad Harzburg or smth), and drinking coffee and chillin'...

Than my second conference with totally different theme started...
It was so different and relaxing! No words can describe it!
I met a lot of ql ppl and rediscover and clarify a lot of important things in my life ...oh it was amazing...

After NaLDS ended 4 of us go to Berlin.
Berlin is really my kind of city...so alive and random, spontaneous, modern...I will definitely come back there sometime. On my internship few years from now for sure!
We were in some jail-kind of hostel and having a lot of unexpected fun and deep conversations at the same time...It was really life changing experience...and not in that fluffy kind of way-it was really life changing for me. Mexican restoraunt and walking in 6h in the morning in Belrin was just few things I will try not to forget till the end of my life.

My next stop was Zagreb and I manage not to be late on 3 trains and at some midnight I was there meeting with Alex, Ivana and Sinisa.
Of course, Alex made me cry with, I can say life changing story, and I've finally met Geet-crazy girl from India that is now in Cro MC.

Next day faci pre meeting has started and I met Adka from Slovakia ,Edu from Portugal and Martin from Czech Republic and Ana & Sanda/crazy girls from Croatia.

After a while we came to Split where HMS ( third conference in row for me) has started.
HMS was really cool I am still reflecting about it.
All the ppl from Cro MC and faci team are really ql and fun...It was awesome:)
Conference was totally different than 2 before and I can say I experienced in 20 days 3 totally unique conferences and from each I've took the best and learned a lot...really a lot.

I think after the whole November XP , I will not be the same person, of course in a positive way:)

But the thing I was thinking about a lot when I was traveling this thousands of miles quest, is my coming back to Belgrade, finishing, continuing and starting things in my life that is here-in Belgrade-place on earth I enjoy the most, doesn't matter where I go to enrich my thoughts and soul.

I feel free again.
And the best things in life are always free.

Mysterious things ...and things not so mysterious

Hello and good bye
That much time I have for this post:)

Actually everything is pretty much fast and mysterious these days.
We started with I'm an AIESECer campaign few weeks ago and my faculty started and other secret campaigns in AIESEC started and a lot of things in my personal life.
Hm, it seems I am again alive and active 500%: )

Also few conferences, and so many opportunities...like everything started with full speed.
I am probably going to NaLDS in Germany in November and before that probably to our Serbian NLDS and probably( again everything is maybe and probably like usual:)) on Croatian motivational seminar... so many stuff:)and travelings

Me- happy:)))

yup, I am also constantly being surprised with one of my best friends and his personality and parts of it I never met...so that's pretty cool, to be amazed all over again with people you care about.

I am all into observation and exploration of people around so be carefull: )
I just enjoy in discovering new positive things about people:)specially ones I care about a lot...I used have high expectations, and get disappointed after a while but now I have some new philosophy about it...just trying to find the best in everyone, 'cause nobody's perfect and everybody has smth ql to stuck on it.

And on some kind of mysterious way I am again in great relations with some of my old friends.
I told you already, things are pretty mysterious these days:)
Like I am whole my life.

Yeah, about mysterious people and things,
I broke up with Maja.
Illusion...blah blah...
I realize that she is not person I want to spend time with...and not mysterious at all...just stupid and superficial...
what can you do..people are sometimes not what you think they are.
or what you want them to be.

I realized I don't need a weaker person in relationship, follower ...or in this case personal stalker...I need someone free,equal, intelligent, deep, mysterious , crazy, funny, ambitious...someone that can go by my side , not in front, or back...someone spontaneous, independent,...someone I can discover and rediscover all the time...and that's not definitely Maja.

So Majo...I am not sorry...I am not disappointed...it's not. just not. and it will never be, like it never was.

Anyways, I am free again...and enjoy in it as much as I can.
Like usual.
I was on a date in the evening and it was so funny.
To date again:)
haha
Of course , fixed dates are always total mess, so I don't think that anything will happen' with this new girl...but who knows: )
I am letting go like usual and taking the best of life, at least trying to.
But, fuck, also like usual, people are not offering something worth of attention, so that's why I am trying to rediscover all the people around all over again...and with some of them it's working, but with some of them...oh fuck, they are just boring and stupid no matter how hard you try to make them other way at least in your mind.

That's all from me for this week.
bbbb bye

Audaces fortuna iuvat

Hello: )

Well, I am at the end of my Romanian XP that is becoming more and more, fifth life changing experience that I lived through this year.

I am in the train Bucharest-Belgrade, alone, listening to some cool relaxing music, and trying to reflect and sum up; put some order in thoughts and find conclusions about the whole intensive RO experience itself and maybe even, whole summer experience, summer of my life as I like to call almost every summer:)

I know I feel now even more passionate about lots of things in my life and that feeling is really deep and strong, like probably never before, so I am sure I will stay in that state of mind for long, long time.

I am happy and satisfied.
Eager to explore, understand myself better.
And after that understand people around me.Explore inner and world around me.

I will challenge myself in months to come.Really challenge.'Cause I' ve realized in past few months what real challenge is.
Keep calmness I feel.
Continue enjoying.
Explore everything.
Stay spontaneous. Open. Friendly. Crazy. Positive.
Just keep being me and nobody else. And try to be better me every day.
Nobody said it's going to be easy.
But that's the point.
I am back on the start, of another unforgettable, spontaneous, adventurous travel.
My life.

Mondo bongo kind of love

I don't want her to know I care. I don't want her to know I don't care...
I need it.I hate it.That passion.Love.Thrill.Excitement.Falling in love...
She told me she loves me.I wish I love her back...I wish I love anyone.I wish I care.I wish I'm not a fuckin' liar.I wish I could ignore this...I wish I'm not fallin'...

I missed that mondo bongo kind of love, if you get me...but probably you don't, if you never heard that song...

She's so beautiful...but too mysterious or if it's not that, stupid...We almost never talk.She's obscure.Unusual.Unpredictable.For every yes she says no. And opposite. I am constantly surprised.I can not predict any thing she says or does.I would never expect that.I didn't want it in this period in my life.
I told her.And she smiled and told me I have the most beautiful eyes she saw.And drive me crazy.I am confused

Last time we saw each other, we were in some Latino kind of club in Ada lake...after going to theater.
It was the most beautiful night in my life...Dancing on the beach.Flames.Water that is so calm. Cocktails, and than tequilas after them.
Calm relaxing music.
No one I know.
Just me her and music.And the quiet wind.
And the mondo bongo song...watching the sunrise.Laughing to anything.

I could go that night to Karola, Dj that was in Belgrade that night...I didn't.
I am sorry.Cause, that night...I've forgot and change.

I've forgot.About all the hurt.All the failures.More than fifty of them.Last tears, when I realized B. is not the one.After two years of strangest love.And strongest I've ever felt

I think I am falling. Maybe Maja is the one.
A very obscure love.
When Alex asked me who is my new girlfriend, I didn't know what to say.
I don't know a shit about her.Not even her birthday, cause Alex asked me which zodiac sign is she...

I know only for certain she's Maja.
And I am Velimir.
I am addicted to mondo bongo song kind of love.And night on Ada lake with Maja.
And maybe you think I hope that this filing is going to last...well I don't.
I am just me.And she is just Maja.
I am happy and complete,not planing and counting.
Enjoying the moment, like always...and finding passion and beauty in everything

back to begining...

hey, I guess I am back...
to very and really scary beginning.
hm, not back to black as song below says, yet it's my favorite song last few weeks or days...
nobody likes it, but it's so nice song, emotional and sad, melancholic maybe like I am sometimes... so maybe nobody likes me when I am in that mood? anyways I am not planning to be like that now or in the nearest future so cut the crap: )
well, from what to start?
as I can see I didn't wrote anything special here, so I can start with : "I was born..." : )
summer vol 1 has ended and I have like two more months more of summer and than...well after that two months I don't know...maybe another two months of something: )...who knows...or 3? 4?...hm
these days, as you can see, I am a little bit confused...just a little bit, no need to make drama of it.

I am on some kind of crossroad here in my life, I know that after this summer it's not going to be like it was or even like i wanted to be, but...that's life.
It's always changing, specially in my case so radically every two years...one two years period is over and next one is starting...hate it: )and love it at the same time...

Firstly I am in some desperate need of some kind of creative work...so I started to paint...again: )))
did some drawings of some lonely trees in black and white..quite good.
when I finish it I will do some portraits of some ppl around, but shhhhh don't tell them: )it's supposed to be a surprise.
I guess drawing helps me in my thinking and believe me I have a lot to think these days even more than I'd like to...

Last two or three days actually I am alone even though there is my mom and sister and father around...can u believe it- I guess no, 'cause I am never alone, but now I am and solitude is great thing actually...specially when u have so many things in your mind and heart...so many decisions on things u don't have no idea what they are...

Yeah I will probably going to start with work in vip mobilkom in hr team: )))
can u imagine it? I know i can't! specially that work part: )
I will try to use it in the best possible way, it's going to be really good thing in my C V wooohooo :)
I want also to go somewhere, experience smth new in some different country so I am thinking about applying for ceed in Tunisia...or Mongolia, but I think there's no AIESEC there: )

Hm Mongolia is so ql, I just talk with Alex when we were in Zagreb few days ago about our future trips around the globe and we decided to go someday( I hope soon )to Asia,countries like Mongolia, Bhutan, Nepal, India, Burma, Tibet...but firstly I must took her to see Venice in fall. Sounds like a good plan! It's such a great city so amazing, like totally non real...

Yeah last week I've spent in Croatia, visiting her, and I had really great time there , no problems, ppl in AIESEC there are so great, funny and crazy like here...

Split on the coast is beautiful, but no nice beaches, except on islands close.. but actualy we didn't need them 'cause of parties till sunrise and getting up toooooo late: )
Zagreb is actually smaller than I thought -like a third of Belgrade, and totally different architecture...like Budapest or Vienna maybe? i don't know, it's ok, but a lot different in not good way than cities I like...Don't even know why but I didn't felt good there...guess it's summer and it's not living with full speed as Novi Sad for example during summer...
Oh, about NS I can't believe I missed exit again!!! and I'd promised last year I will go this year for certain: (
Hm , well I will not promise anything but I will go there next year!!!
Yeah I will, for certain, no missed e.x.i.t. 's in my life anymore :)

Hm back to beginning...sounds scary? NOT: ) of course when u start over your whole life every two years it's not, but it's a lot harder then before...hate it, and I am really scared to forget and loose...oh just forget as usual, like there is a tide in my soul and that tide is crushing all connections in previous periods...making sweet and close memories far...so far...like it's not mine memories, like it's memories of some strangers...that look like me on photos in albums.

there is always good chance that it's not going to happen again...I know I will give my best.

While I am still around that tidal wave thing, today is Sandra's birthday and six months from my birthday...you know Sandra? I don't...and she was one of my best friends like five years ago...lost her on the end of one of that two years periods...
and now don't even know anything about her...except it's her birthday...I remember her first birthday we celebrated together , there was a really cool party and everybody was so fuckin' crazy, of course with me on the top of craziness...
We were on exit and there was a so ql group there smoke city and we were in to that song whole summer..song is going smth like this : "...after the rain comes sun, after the sun comes rain..." can't actually remember what is the songs tittle, but I know it was so good , nice beats ..oh I know!! the name of song is underwater love!!! can't believe I know it after so much time and events passed by: )
well i will find it now, just to refresh sweet memories that are not lost:)

yup it's still a really great song!!!

ok so enough of me for this post: )
enjoy in underwater love from smoke city like me right now! here is the link to you tube video of this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIYoorXGITE ...enjoy in life it's too short not to !

V.

back to black

Amy Winehouse Back to Black Lyrics

I am bored! : )
I will start writing soon on the other blog Belgrade confidential, 'cause it's empty: (
bye bye

Parts of my unfinished novel: /serbian/

hey I'd promised that I will publish some parts of my unfinished novel so here it is ,..sorry it's on Serbian for now...it is an interesting story about how do I get the story of it...actually one night I had a dream, and the dream began like this:

P I S M O



Sivi, jesenji vetar sa Karpata, žuri kroz pustaru obasjanu mesečinom i zvezdanim nebom. Utihnuli život ceka da se rodi uz prve kapi rose, koja u zoru gasi žedj nekoj usamljenoj srni.
Zversku tišinu prekida ponekad, samo zvuk drhtanja drveca od naleta ledenog vetra. Na istoku se nagomilavaju oblaci.
Samo u jednoj brvnari se vidi svetlo iza šalona. U prostranoj i toplo uređenoj sobi sa kaminom, za pisaćim stolom ,sedi mlad , krupan,, crnokos mladic. Sve u njegovoj spoljašnosti daje utisak mlade osobe, osobe ispunjene životnim radostima.
Sve, sem skoro prozirnih, ledenih ociju.
Olovka, koja zajedno sa rukom , nervozno drhti, ipak revnosno ispisuje slova i reči koja svima nama dragi čitaoče deluju tako daleko, baš kao i ova pustara, gde naš junak u dedinoj lovačkoj brvnari, ispisuje pismo, upućeno ko zna kome…

“Čini mi se da je ovo poslednja oaza divljine, poslednji kutak na planeti gde
mogu da imam slobodu; da je ovaj vetar meni nekako pitom, a pesak zauzdan travom- plodan. Ovde, u Pustari, sam nešto neopisivo, nešto sasvim drugo. Nešto što nisam milionskom gradu…Ili samo umišljam?
Više ni ne znam šta je stvarnost, a šta je iluzija…Ali čemu ovaj produžetak agonije?

Žao mi je što nikada nisam doveo ovde, iako sam ti to obećavao.Gubim razum ako ga već nisam izgubio. Voleo bih da si pored mene, da ležimo na krznenoj prostirci ispred kamina i ćutimo, samo ćutimo prokleto dugo, I uživamo u plamičku sreće, dok god on traje, I svako veče ga iznova palimo. Prokleti smo!
Bilo bi bolje da mogu da zaboravim, da ne osećam ovoliku bol , da više ne osećam. Želeo bih da moja ljubav prema tebi utihne, da može da ispari poput rose na jutarnjem suncu.
Želeo bih da je ovo srce pusto poput moje unistene duse koja urliče u ovoj pustari mog zivota.
U mom srcu će uvek biti kutak, koji ću čuvati samo za tebe, makar se više i ne videli, ma gde bio...Mali deo duše će te uvek voleti, bez obzira na sve ; uvek će maštati o zajedničkoj sreći…gubim se sve više…


and the other part I will reveal is on the first look totally not connected with it...

Lepota vol 1


Egipat,19. vek p.n.e.,Amenemhet-it-tavi( prestonica Srednjeg Carstva)


Princeza Nari umrla je u 31. godini. Bila je prvorođeno dete Egipatskog Faraona.Njen ,po današnjim merilima, kratak život, bio je ispunjen lepotom i uživanjem,gracioznošću građevina XII dinastije, u vreme Srednjeg Carstva.
Bila je obasuta božanskim tretmanom od strane svih podanika, ali i Visokih Sveštenika, oca-Faraona i brata, a najviše pažnje poklanjala joj je majka. I sve to, samo zbog ’’plave’’ krvi i neobične lepote. Nije bila gorda, ali takav tretman joj je prijao,šta više, bila je ponosna na svoje ’’očigledno’’ božansko poreklo.
Kao i većina pripadnika najviše klase, provodila je mnogo vremena u ulepšavanju i negovanju već prelepe spoljašnosti. Robinje su joj svako jutro satima slikale zlatnom, crnom,plavom i mnogim drugim bojama u zavisnosti od prilike, po telu, svakog jutra bi stavljala novu crnu periku ukrašenu zlatom na dostojanstveno, obrijanu glavu...Imala je prelepu odeću, tako vazdušastu i nežnu, laku: savim odgovarajuću uz njen neovozemaljski hod i život. Poput gazele ili duha, u zavisnosti od raspoloženja, je prolazila kroz ogromne hipostilne dvorane.
Svi su joj se divili , a ona je ponosno gledala u daljine, nepoznate običnim smrtnicima .Dizali su je u visine, obožavali je. Bila je zaista poput boginje, spuštene u pustinju iz raskošnog, vodom prebogatog, raja. Njena zaštitnica beše Izida, a njene oči, tamne i oivičene crnim ugljenom, imale su neverovatnu dubinu...
Ali, ipak njen život je bar iz današnje perspective, bio prilično monoton.Ona je uživala u životu. Umrla je od trovanja organizma zbog prevelike upotrebe zlata, ugljena i ostalih nezdravih boja u prahu, kao i većina egipatskih princeza i prinčeva. Sahranjena je takođe poput svih njih.Umrla je zbog lepote, ne žaleći ni sekund.

so this is it, I will translate soon: )it is hard to write the whole novel, specially when you already know everything, and I must say that is the strangest thing that happened to me...and I don't know why this story shows up in my dream...My opinion is that objectives of the story are love, faith, regrets, bravery and cowardness, fundhementhal fealings and the present and future of people on earth and all the confusion life brings...I hope I will finish it this year :)

My celebrity look alikes...wow disaster

The other side of the looking glass

What's on the Other Side
of the Looking Glass?
by Lawrence Gold
Before you take a running leap at your mirror . . .
Just where is the other side of the looking glass?
You may be familiar with Lewis Carroll's classic, "Alice's Adventures in Wonderland -- or -- Through the Looking Glass".
Kind of had a dreamlike quality, didn't it? That's a hint.
We grew up in a culture where far more attention is placed upon image than upon our own experience, and more upon how things look than upon how they feel. Even our feelings about things are largely governed by whether we believe others will approve of them. No? Just look at advertising; look at the notion of "political correctness".
Where are we taught to attend directly to our own experience or to originate our own values?
Certainly not in school, where we are taught to validate and to perpetuate the feelings and observations of others.
The mirror -- or "looking glass" -- is a symbol of that way of life -- the concern with outward appearances, with how we look. The odd thing is, in the mirror, everything is seen in reverse, and everything appears to be where it is not -- "over there".
What is being reflected is not "over there"; it is "over here". The other side of the looking glass is not behind it; it is in front of it, the one place we never look.
Introspection is gazing into the other side of the looking glass. It looks at the place of dreams and of perception. The other side of the looking glass is where "you", the reader, are, as you experience yourself to be -- though not as others see you. Just to be clearer, it is not where I, the writer am, as seen by you; it is where I am, where known by me, myself, as "I".
Question: From what point of view do you view that "inner" you?
Oddly, it's from the same point of view that you view the world. It faces inward; it faces outward. It faces ... but it can never be faced and is never seen.
It is our source -- or ... ourselves as source.

My favourite lyrics : )

"Who Knew"/Pink

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No, no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

Personal tests- funny:))

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.
However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.
Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 12

You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.


***The Keys to Your Heart***


You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

***Your Personality Is Like Alcohol***


You're the life of the party, a total flirt, and probably a pretty big jokester.
Sometimes your behavior gets you in trouble, but you still remain socially acceptable.
You're a pretty bad driver, and you're dancing could also use a little work!




***You Should Be a Film Writer***


You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

***The Part of You That No One Sees***


You are powerful, passionate, and dominant.
You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen.
People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many.

Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions.
So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few.
However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

***You Are Mint Green***


Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well.
Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations.
You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life.
Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them!

Fallin' into nightmare...I hope it's over

Hm...what a strange month behind me...I can not remember any time period in my life with so many challenges, stressful situations, loses, brakedowns or whtvr u call it, and come on-few weeks ago I could die...I hope next month - march will be much, much better! : )
I don't know from what to start?
From my first "hospital experience", near death situation, canceled travel, losed friend, or the fact that I lose in race of accomplishment of one of my biggests dreams, thing that I wanted for so long and working on, for almost a year...
I don't know what was the actual reason for each one of my problems. I know only, that it was like jumping from one to another, and like that whole month...It is strange to feel like that, to live a whole month in a nightmare.
I used to be one of that persons that everyone hate, 'cause of my luck and 'cause of almost everything I do -I do it easily...Now, I am not sure about my fortunate character : )at all...
My self confidence is realy low last few weeks and I don't know what to do with it, because I was never lacking in it. Seriuos stuff to deal with, but I must start now, just to try to prevent another february 2007 in my life. First I should find out what are the reasons for this events and things that brought me to the situation I am in right now...
Hm,....it's not going to be easy... : )
I lost my star and I have to find it again... Hope I will...I will try my best to come back to life I always wanted, life that I'd lived just one month ago...I hope I didn't lose it 4ever...
or, maybe I need smth new?
hm...till I find out
Vexy

Change begins with choice...

Elections...snowy day...
two friends of mine are candidates for LCP...two presentations with great memories and moments,
6 rounds of questions.
It was amazing experience, but somehow sad, tough...
I don't like to chose betwen my friends, two girls that are so similar and different at the same point.
But, I made my choice.


I made a promisse to myself: Next time I have to make such a difficult decission, I will vote for myself : )Lidija was elected!

What will new AIESEC year, 2007, brought to me?
I hope that will be even more...I can't explain how 2006 was for me...
I can't describe it...I'm just proud that I have it in my memory, that I've lived every day of it,
that I've enjoyed every second,moment...
that I met so many people, learn so much, develop myself in away i couldn't even imagine before...
so I hope 2007 in AIESEC will be even more...amazing!
Till I found out...
Kisses

Praznina

Za sve one koji su nekad mnogo voleli, koji su nekad bili mnogo povredjeni, koji su nekad zaboravili i nastavili dalje...

Praznina, 2001

Nistavilo zivota,
Ogledalo srece i ti u njemu...

Volim te.
Iako je prosla vecnost od tada.
Zelim te.
Iako je bol jos veci sada,
kada nemam vise sebe.

Neostavreni san...
Ogledalo srece i ljubav mog zivota...

Oh, voleo bih da si plod moje maste,
da mi dolazis samo u snove.
da ne ispunjavas svaku misao,dah,
svaki delic mog zivota...

Oh, zeleo bih da si samo usamljeno slovo,
trag na ovom papiru...

Vise ne postojim.
Topim se kao sneg na prolecnom suncu,
kao led pod srcem koje voli.
Nestajem,
kao sreca kockara koji
sve gubi.

Kao stranac,
u vecnoj hladnoci
-nistavilo obuzima mi srce...
Sve postaje mrak u hodnicima duse
-jedina svetlost nestala je zauvek
kao lek za nikad preboljenu ljubav.

Ogledalo srece
i tvoj odraz koji se gubi...

Every long journey begins with a first step...

Hi!
They say that every big journey begins with the first step...wow-I didn't knew that before!
Obviously I'm making that big step for I don't know who now... : )
...we will see.
a sad malo na srpskom: )

Moguce je i da cu pisati i delove svog nedovrsenog a i verovatno nikad zavrsenog romana...e da radio sam sad test licnosti i trudio se da odgovaram sto brze kako bi rezultati bili sto realniji...evo su rezultati:

Global Personality Test Results

Stability: 73%
Orderliness:83%
Extraversion:73%

i ovo sve znaci da sam super... : ) verovatno bih bio super i da su mi rezultati ne znam kakvi...hahahahaha...bas ne volim horoskope, testove licnosti...zabava za ljude koji ne poznaju dovoljno sebe, a isto zele na pogresan nacin...hm
ovo je dovoljno od mene za prvi put
posto jos uvek nisam odlucio da li cu pisati na srpskom ili engleskom, za sada je pola- pola: )


love u all,
Vexy