Nothing fails

Speechless. Broken. Happy. Thrilled. Excited. In despair of new beginning.Wanting so badly to stop and think. To forgive and be forgiven.

Wishing for a miracle...for this tears to stop...for a new chance...for better understanding...

trying,waiting, hoping...

for someone to comeback sometimes in the future so we can make alive our playground...

for someone to decide finally what to do next and succeed...

for someone to accept me as I am, and listen true me, like I am ready to accept and listen to him...

I am fucked up!
I wanted so strongly to be happy. To live intensively. To develop deeply.

and I've succeeded.

I am happy.
My life is more intense than ever before.
I am developing deeply.

but after this 2 or 3 months ...I just want to stop for a while and think, reflect, sum up... whatever you call it.
Because I am hurting people I care about.
Because I can not express to them some important things.
Because I am hearting myself by all this...and it hurts, fuck
it hurts so much
I could felt last night moment when my heart broke
I 've caused it
I am stupid...too excited and lost
In a desperate need for new things...
new chance
new talk
new deeper relations with people I care about and love so much
people I hope I didn't loose forever

but from now on,
I will not fear it.
I am learning how to let go.
of all the bad things
and let go to all moments, people and things I care, enjoy, love, want, feel...
just let myself go and enjoy the ride, wherever it takes me...
Trying so hard to loose it all so I can be free and enjoy in all the moments that are coming with people I am learning how to love, and maybe they are learning how to love me.

Nothing fails when you're fearless. Open. Understood. Loved.