Renaissaince month of mine...or a year ahead of me?

As a title said this is/was a renaissance month for me...and it is probably some random direction of the whole year ahead of me...maybe
Let go of crap

January 2008 is really the longest month I can remember till now...and it's not 'cause of stupid premises like you spend all your money on gifts and stuff on holidays, it's 'cause of countless events and really big decisions days for me and around me..can't believe it's still going, never ending month really...
And the greatest paradox of many I've realized this month is that even though I am almost perfect in multitasking this month, and have accomplished every single smallest thing I've planned and didn't planned at all( : D), I find hard, really hard to focus and concentrate, while studying, thinking, reflecting, talking...that confusion is so unlike me from previous months...or not? hmhmhm

The truth is I feel bored, and somehow weak for thinking(?!) hahaahah
So ql!
I guess I am in some really important period for reaching new heights of my intensiveness balance philosophy and others I've got in that pseudo-self discovering/rediscovering-balance between calmness and intensiveness kind of travel to and through Romania in September...This is definitely some kind of renaissance for me...I am discovering a lot of things and more importantly getting clear with fundamental stuff in my personality...that's probably why I find difficult to concentrate, 'cause of many important things, researches,conversations, approvals of my theories, bids in stupid everyday life,assumptions, logics, philosophies...too much stuff, and no straight focus, something like theory of chaos I am so proudly supporting in my everyday life, just in this month is working differently,'cause I became too flexible and open for challenging so I am trying to be the person who knows the connection of the series of random, chaotic events, but not really controlling them like usually, just being aware of them...complex ha?
hahaha I know you probably have stopped reading a while ago


Hm, confusion never ends...and I enjoy in it I guess.I've lied. I know I am enjoying it, that's my way of life.

The thing that is so super, is that I've started reading books again, not just faculty books( :/), also some really cool, challenging books, as well as watching same alike films and reading critics of it all...it's cool, just don't have so much time, that's why I don't blog so often as usual,'cause I am using blogging time to read some formal books, not blogs I discovered I like so much in past few months...maybe that new/old behavior and approach to my enrichment/development is a part of that greater renaissance mentioned above? In any case, it is cool.
Also, I've almost stop using internet for almost two weeks, and it wasn't strange at all...freaky I am writing it, freaky I did it without any good reason, internet is freaky sometimes hahah
Well that's all from me, I am tired a bit, and going back to non virtual relax time I was enjoying before this blog accident -or other named- the new post of mine.
Enjoy